(this is) the journal of jacob

I'm going through my phone and there's no one that I really want to talk to, and if I do want to talk to them they don't really want to talk to me. I don't care if it's 2am I need help and I want to talk. Whatever. I quit.

Truthfully, I just wanted to see if these links worked. You have heard these, it's just safest to try out stuff on my livejournal as only four or five will see it and judge me (be it quite a harsh judgment). Dig it.

I didn't get that recording done due to Rene's interface being a PC only interface (who does that?) but that just gives me more time to figure out exactly what I want to happen. I only have the middle of the song written and ideas for the beginning end - excellent ideas though they may be, are still ideas. I have one more long shot to try for my interface and then after that I'm just going to go buy a new one. A bigger one. A rack mounted one.*
Last night a friend of mine was playing at a play or something. I think the idea is that the play takes place in downtown Fort Worth and the whole time all of the players keep talking about this show that they're going to and when the show is over and everyone exits (wait for it) A BAND IS PLAYING! I actually walked up to the play as they were loading out :( sad times. However, I did join the guys for their post show drink which was at Pappacito's because they're all my mom. It was terrible, I kept telling them all that I wasn't dating anyone at the moment and would tell them when I was, they kept asking when I was going to go back to school full time and quit it with this "part time shit*"
Yeah that's pretty much it. Oh, and this:





*My my I've got big plans.
**That's really really how my mom talks.

Yesterday I agreed to work merch for a friends band on Saturday believing Saturday to be weeks away, months even. I am not excited about staying up late listening to a band I don't like. Free drinks though, so turn your phones on.

I wasn't sleeping very well this morning, I was in the middle of a waking nightmare that was keeping me from getting any real rest so I decided to get up and diagram the nightmares away.
So far I've deduced that the only equipment that I need is a power amp and that's for practice purposes only, hopefully I can borrow one from one of the many actual musicians that I know. If not I can always buy one (I will probably end up buying one). Sadly my main necessities are non musical. It's a positive that the few things that I need are a small card table, a foldable bench, and keyboard stand, right? Yes. I need to get my DD5 fixed too. I suppose that I don't *need* to have it fixed but I'd like to be able to wander to an instrument freely without having to unplug any pedals and take them with me.
Sorry about the boring post with all of the run on sentences.

today i'm driving to brownwood and staying the night, i'm very prepared.

polaroid
extra shirt
cardigan?
star trek memories
short stories


that's already so many things.


ALSO
i like kristen's painting.

my feelings on so many subjects are quite complicated.

I got all of my money returned to my account, so that's cool I suppose. It just made me want to throw a $616.96 party for me and all of my new friends.

I would very much like an Ebow
I can't sleep
It's a distinct possibility that I can, in fact, sleep but my sleep schedule is off for some reason
I know why my sleep schedule is off and it involves staying up late and thinking about work
not coffee place work but other work that would let me use my degree and allow me to travel
I wish that people with money weren't so on the fence about spending said money
I still really want that Ebow
I have to be at work in twenty nine minutes
Ebow

I just got back from seeing My Bloody Valentine. I feel like a new part of me has been shaken awake by all of the fuzz, I'm probably going to be on a feedback kick for the next few weeks.

I should have left for a recording session much earlier in the day but instead I've watched the new episode of party down and the really fantastic episode of Dollhouse from last week. I also think that I will accept an offer of a free late lunch that I got from my landlord. Nice. The guy that I'm recording knows that I'm going to be late and is still going to pay me, what a dummy. Or a nice person. Same/Diff.
Here's a bloc party song that I remixed this morning when I couldn't sleep. If you don't like bloc party then you won't like this remix. I obviously like bloc party. And telling friends to listen to my remixes.

this link will take you to listen to the remix

some days i just do not like being me.

I've gone through most of the recipes in the one cook book that I have, it covers an extensive list of foods but I think that I've exhausted everything inside and would like to try something new. I'm thinking of trying out a raw food diet for a while but I have two major worries:

1. I don't like beets and there are a lot of beets in all of the raw food recipes that I've been looking up.
2. I'm really bad at rolling seaweed. I'm just awful at it.

I know that seaweed and beets aren't the only ingredients in raw food (obviously) but they're the funniest words that I could find. Unless you count sentences like "2 medium green zuccini, as thick (fat) and straight as possible."
If you aren't giggling at that sentence then you're probably an octogenarian or a black and white movie.

Here are some reasons that I'm pumped about attempting a raw food diet:
1.soups
2.salads
3.i'll get to use my blender more than i do ever (rarely)
4.eating fruit in public
5.getting to say "oh i only eat raw food."
6.funny names like "lava soup" and "cool slaw"


I'm not sure how I'm going to work all of my drinking into the raw food schedule but I guess that I'll figure something out.

Blake Swarzenbach may forever speak in my place.


I'm working on a new song that I'm pretty sure that I accidentally ripped off from Dntel, I hate it when I do that. I took a break to watch Harold and Maude and pass out on my couch and maybe tomorrow I'll figure out how to be original.

I found out today that the small label that was going to release a mini cd that I've been hyping for about five months would not be releasing the aforementioned mini cd. WEAK!!!
I understand that the economy is no good right now and that money is tight, I really do get that, but I also worked really hard to get those songs and artwork ready for the label and now to hear that my cd is going to be pushed back almost an entire year (if not more) is incredibly annoying. I looked into how much the cost of releasing a limited run of mini cds and it really isn't that much, it's more than a pack of socks but it's not so much that a cd should have to be pushed back until next April. At the moment I'm waiting on a quote from a company that presses small runs of albums so I can compare that with the cost of making the eps myself on mini cdrs and getting the artwork done at kinkos. Either way it's not really a big deal, I'm pretty sure that Records Of The Abyss was just going to do the latter.
I was planning on releasing a nice looking LP late this year or early 2010 so I suppose that this can be considered practice.
I need someone to handle all of this junk for me.

I've been listening to "Ready To Die" by Notorious BIG all day and I can't get enough of it, how good is this album? Every song on the record totally works. "Gimmie The Loot" and "Machine Gun Funk" are both over full minute songs about shooting and killing people on the street for their money, what mainstream hip hop has done something so bold in the last five years? I guess that Lil Wayne mentions that he has a glock in a song but the aforementioned "MGF" thoroughly details how to rob someone. It's so good.
I'm waiting on a quote from a cd duplication company about packaging for the mini cds that Records Of The Abyss was supposed to release but I haven't heard from them and I've been offered a cd release show and I can't really have a show without a cd so I guess that I'll just pay for the mini cds myself.

All of the not getting raped.

I haven't really done much today other than watch Rock Of Love, try to record a new old song that didn't really work out, get some of my recycling together and try to email possible future bands members. I've been looking for a clarinet player but I found a drummer who takes initiative, I know this because he emailed me about a post that was asking about clarinet players. The more the merrier I guess. I got a new issue of tape-op in (which I had mailed to me via my MIND) so I think I'll read that until it's time for more Rock Of Love and then sleep. Unless more initiative taking musicians email me.

I'm getting all of my stuff ready to drive down to Austin today for some and maybe music, but probably a lot of walking around. Truthfully I am mainly excited about seeing my mom's friend Sonja who'd letting me sleep at her house. YAY! When I was young Sonja would always fly into town and take my mom off for a night of drinking and my dad hated it. My dad was an asshole so I loved it. Sonja was also hilarious. I love sassy older women with a passion. Love em. Maybe I'll be one some day. I'm packing a back pack full of extra shirts and a couple of books, hopefully I'll be so busy with noisy bands I won't have any time to read them.

I am quite pleased with myself, Pop Gun Radio just played two(!) of my songs on their show. yay for me! I'm pretty sure that no one else really cares about my Massachusetts radio debut but I'm siked(sic).
Tomorrow I'm opening the store and working for eight or so hours and then I might drive to McKinney (an hour and some change away) to buy a large diaphragm microphone that I would like very much that I found on craigslst, but maybe I won't due to being a lazy bones. I probably will.

This next week is going to be a hectic one, opening tomorrow, MANSIONS/partying with MANSIONS on tuesday, sxsw on wednesday(?) - saturday. I still need to find a place to sleep.